TELL ME

How does it work? Heaven?
Tell me about the place you lost faith in.
Did the warmth and love undo you?
Did it feel like you always belonged?

How does it look? Heaven?
Are the colors deeper? Does time still tick?
Does the air hum with music? Do you finally know you're enough?
Are your thoughts now quiet, your soul made whole?

How does it feel? Heaven?
Were you greeted just like we’re told?
With long-awaited hugs, multiplied by forever?
Can you finally receive all the love?

How does it restore you? Heaven?
Has God wrapped His arms around you?
Is He like a radiant sunrise that never sets?
Did He tell you… you were always His?

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider for my friend Andy Conrad 1973-2025

A QUIET PLACE

The sun is lucky to shine for you
The pull of the moon is privileged too
The stars pose to catch your gaze
The night itself bends to your ways

The magic you bring has been unseen
Noble, refined, and everything between
My heart has leapt, it’s fallen and flown
So seen, so held, no longer alone

Your eyes see who I am and can be
Your honesty itself makes me feel free
The space you fill is both soft and strong
I have not a doubt it’s where I belong

No fire could warm me quite like your name
It deepens my breath and steadies my flame
No mask, no fear, just honesty
With you and this love is where I’m meant to be

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider

NOT YOUR FAULT

 

 

In memory of my friend

ANDY CONRAD

May 14, 1973 - May 28, 2025 

_______________________

Loving you big

Didn’t save you

Accepting your faults

Didn’t save you

Being your friend

Didn’t save you

 

I don’t carry a burden

I carry sadness

I don’t carry blame

I carry grief

I don’t carry regret

I carry heaviness

 

Loving you was easy

Loving yourself was hard

You called yourself a nuisance

But I promise you never were

 

Your demons were lifelong

I blame them, not you

I hugged you so tight

I knew it was my last

 

Ending it wasn’t a choice

It was the only thing you saw

Your clouded mind couldn’t see

This was never your fault

 

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider