WHAT I WANT

I want long hugs.
The kind I don’t have to ask for.

I want transparency.
The kind that is natural and not out of guilt.

I want forgiveness.
The kind where something isn’t hung over my head for years and years.

I want to be touched.
The kind that is because you love me and not because you’re thinking of someone else.

I want to be accepted.
The kind that makes my weirdness more charming.

I want to be heard.
The kind that makes my over-explanation of my feelings not feel like they are a nuisance.

I want to feel safe.
The kind that makes me feel comfortable being my true self.

I want communication.
The kind where I don’t get one word descriptions of your feelings.

I want to feel trust.
The kind where you don’t hold secrets.

I want to feel strong.
The kind that you love about me and not think it’s against you.

I want to be celebrated.
The kind where I feel like I can accomplish anything with you by my side.

I want respect.
The kind where you don’t complain about me to your friends behind my back.

I want quiet time.
The kind where if I need some alone time that it’s not against you, but for me to recharge.

I want something real.
The kind where our relationship is about us and not about appearances.

I want to not be judged.
The kind where my 53 year old flawed body is cherished and desired.

I want to feel balanced.
The kind where we find a way for our strengths and weaknesses to exist in harmony.

I want to breathe.
The kind where our relationship isn’t always under a microscope and a struggle, but where we can simply exist and enjoy each other for who we are.

I want to be vulnerable.
The kind where an open conversation about how we both receive love is welcomed and where our egos or wounded pasts don’t get in the way of listening.

I want to be loved.
The kind of love where not only am I receiving all of these things, but also 100% wanting to give them.

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider

FREEDOM

I smile a lot... laughter too
So many things I now can do
I feel light... and also free
Most of all, I feel like me

Mountains are big... so is my dream
Yesterday's loss has now been redeemed
I rely on myself... changes are good
Standing tall, just like I should

I ask for directions... listen, I do
Only I can choose where to turn to
I am enough... no matter who's eyes
Staying on path, I'll accept my prize

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider

BE STILL

“Be still,” He said to me,
“How else can I make you see
The future I have in store?
I just need you to believe.”

“In the future, you will shine.
I love you because you’re mine.
Learn love, learn trust, learn patience.
All good things come in time.”

There are lots of things you’ll learn,
But not before their turn.
I’ll keep you protected always.
And so I ask of you in return…”

“Put your heart in my hand.
Put your trust in my plan.
And when things don’t seem possible,
Just remember I AM.”

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider

UNWAVERING GRACE

Push forward, move ahead
Hard to do with shoes of lead
Future’s horizon calling my name
Do what I can to not stay the same

Things I’ve learned, most of all grace
Even with lead it’s pace after pace
Busting down walls, making me strong
Going straight forward is where I belong

The heaviness will lighten, I know this is true
The horizon is waiting to make me anew
The lead will loosen and fall to the side
Joy will take over and make my smile wide

Move ahead, push forward
Find happiness to move toward
Can’t grow without pain, but it doesn’t last
I will make my future much better than my past

Written by Rebecca Grace Snider